I am almost questioning same question (or probably because it's not working) do I really deserve a position what we call a life savior? First, Let me show you definition of doctor, taken from Free Dictionary
1. A person, especially a physician, dentist, or veterinarian, trained in the healing arts and licensed to practice.
- A person who has earned the highest academic degree awarded by a college or university in a specified discipline.
- A person awarded an honorary degree by a college or university.
Well, that's one of few definition of doctor I have searched which pointing of treating sick and injury people. Well, techically I am a doctor. I finished my medical lessons, got honorary degree from my university and (TRY) to treat sick and injured people.
Myth says, you who do good things in your lives will be awarded a highest place in heaven. Help people is something good, right? But what if try to against someone fate, who is planned die by angels of death, is it a good thing also? /think, sigh/ Hmm, I know I am being irrasional sometimes, and whenever that times approaching me, it drives me insane. Well, litterally, irrasional means not logical or reasonable, but I keep my self thinking the solution. It becomes burdensome and tragically I even enjoy that situation (anyway, do you believe what I said? Kkk)
Being a doctor, I can learn so many character through my patient, I can learn how to care to other, I learn how to comfort insecure patient. But that's not all, I also need to learn how to break the bad news, I have to handle the high level stress, I need to be focus and multi tasking in same time, I need to get used to hear problem
Despite of being a doctor, not even related with good things and bad things, I am a doctor now. Whenever I am, I am a doctor. I can't deny my faith of being a doctor now/ and I don't want to be used to either/. I only can do my best as a doctor. I really want to help people as honest as I can. I love being loved by my patient / in normal way, not in romantic way anyway/ But I find myself a little bit greedy. I really want to be an exceptional ones. Hahaha.
I come from a small city in developing country. I graduated from local University and have experienced of handle international patient and cases in my home country. Believe or not, my workplace is an International Standard Hospital. My workplace has laws and regulations to treat our patient professionally. My senior also has experience to be teached by US doctor (in trainee season). Unfortunatelly, no US class for my trainee (yet?) I am still waiting for chance of get that rare opportunity. I really excited having new experience, involving culture difference. I always find it amused. Hahaha.
Anyway, back to the topic, I started to use to be doctor and slowly realized my job. I also adopt the environment and I can accept my condition now. It doesn't matter anymore if become a doctor is a tragedy or empathy, for me, being a doctor is a message to be a better person by learning compassion, carefulness, emergency, alert, discipline, team-mate, trustworthy, and professional. The process of being success will always hard, if not maybe there's something wrong: choose wrong path, or I will not success. And I chose enjoy the process until I arrive to my own success. Amen.
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